As soon as I opened my eyes this morning I felt awful. Not physically. But something was bothering me. I started tracing it back to the source right away and found it in something that happened yesterday. I attended an event for work about an hour away and as I walked to my car someone was waiting for me in the parking garage. I met him at the event earlier and there he was. He seemed harmless and talked to me as I went on to my car. I kept trying to leave but he just kept talking. He wasn’t rude. But it was intrusive as I think about it now. Normally, I feel independent. I’m not easily scared. (except in thunderstorms). I can install ceiling fans, remodel bathrooms, change a tire and navigate international travel. This was a simple social situation and I felt cornered. Naive. I felt ridiculous… I felt like a child, not in good way. I try really hard not to hurt people’s feelings, yesterday there was point where being direct was more important than being polite. I don’t like being made to choose. I don’t like feeling that kind of vulnerable. When I got out of bed, I stood and looked in the mirror. For a long time. I think I do that sometimes just to make sure I’m still there.