still. but alive.

Sometimes you find yourself in a situation you never thought you’d be in.  Exactly the opposite of what you’d be in.  I found myself there a week ago.  A simple matter really.   and not worth revisiting… but at the time, it made my head spin.  Literally.  I removed myself from it and sat alone in this room.  in a place I now lovingly refer to as the twilight zone.  I was doing well at feeling sorry for myself and a bit self-righteous, when suddenly I saw nothing but this light through the window.  It was clear.  and black and white.  and still.  but alive.  and until a fire started in a restaurant up the street, for those few minutes, the only thing that mattered.  Maybe the only thing that should have ever mattered.